Today is not a good day and a strong coffee couldn’t help it. Since having 3 kids, motherhood sometimes gets the better off me.
You guys, have you ever screamed at your children? I’m not talking about scolding with a loud voice, I’m talking about SCREAM at the top of your lungs the entire block in your neighborhood could hear you. Well I have, and I am not embarrassed to admit it but am I proud of it? Heck no.
This morning I found dirty laundry on the floor of my walk in closet and a wet towel on my bed courtesy of my 9 year old. I yelled at him so hard I was shaking afterwards.
And 2 minutes later I felt miserable. Who is this woman and how did she get here?!
I love my children, without a doubt but parenting is sooo hard and I know most people would never admit or show the rawness of their emotions because our social media friends don’t like that. Well maybe some of you wouldn’t appreciate me talking about this negative vibe here but I want to be real and I want to recognize this at least for myself, because it’s what makes me human.
In my personal account I would never post about this because I feel like my friends or family don’t have to know (for fear of being judged) but here – I want to be authentic. I guess when you don’t personally know people you feel safe to be exposed (ironically)because if I get judged, none of their opinion would matter and I just go on with my day.
Anyhow if you’re still reading, thank you and I want you to know I appreciate you hearing me out. If you’re a mother and having a bad day too, please know you are not alone.